off plot in the wastelands
i tell myself i like spontaneity, but that is probably only a half-truth. i like to create a defined reality around myself that is consistent and within that i like room for variation. thus, i like to feel like my life is spontaneous and open, but only within a pretty measured and bounded space.
these days i am way off the path. there isn't really a confined space. everything is wide open. i can do whatever i want next. that is an odd feeling. it's like i have left the current story i was telling and landed in an entirely new plot and world.